The Baking and Breaking of Bread-Love Between Us

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Summer if finally, and irrevocably here. As the temperatures rise, our gardens are burgeoning. Grocery stores, co-ops, and farmers markets full of fresh produce. We are doing our best to spend more time outside.

With the heat, our previous pandemic hobbies may be slackening. Namely baking. When Washington state’s stay-at-home orders began in March, I suddenly had more time to be at home with my work. I could begin to work on projects and activities that took time. For me, this meant a return to baking. There was just one hitch, I was out of yeast and there wasn’t any available in the stores.

My friend on the Idaho’s Palouse region, has been something of an amateur artisan baker for years. Well, amateur might be too soft a word considering the complex breads he was pulling out of the oven every few days. He had even gone so far in his obsession to buy some locally milled Palouse wheat flour. He wanted keep his bread as local as possible.

Which meant he made his own sourdough starter using local flour and water and the yeasts that formed in his home. You can let the eye-rolling begin. I certainly did. But my friend heard about my yeast predicament. He took some of his own starter, dried it out over several days, and mailed it to me.

I received a card that said “Here you go!” with a baggy of some crusty grey matter in it. Not a hopeful start to sourdough baking.

But my friend coached me via text and soon my sourdough starter was bubbling away. I made sourdough waffles, sourdough pancakes, sourdough muffins, sourdough banana bread and cornbread. I even mastered baking the overnight sourdough breads in my cast iron enamel pot.

Now my starter is resting in my fridge and only comes out to be fed or on a cool summer morning to help me bake.

What, you might be asking yourself, does baking have to do with church?

As it turns out, quite a bit. In the congregation I serve as a worship leader some Sundays, a church member bakes the communion bread each week. It is an act of service and love to the entire community. Before the pandemic, we each consumed the blessed bread as a community, becoming one body in Christ.

Communion, the celebration of the eucharist, the breaking of bread among friends remains the most joyful and intimate part of my “church” experience. Jesus did not celebrate the Last Supper by himself. He was eating with his friends. And in that same spirit, communion is not meant to be practiced alone. We share the bread and the cup together.

Or we did until the pandemic. Now we find ourselves in our homes, alone or with family members. Some of us are watching church on Facebook Live, or YouTube. Some of us are going to church services or virtual coffee hours on Zoom. Or maybe just for a hike and some quite reflection time until we can “get back to church.”

Make no mistake, I want to get back to church too. I want to see all of you, be with all of you, and experience face-to-face worship. Without fear. But for now, we remain cautious. We are all doing our part not to spread the coronavirus in our communities. We worship at a distance, either digitally or from 10 feet away in our churches. In person communion, for now, seems to be off the table. And probably for quite some time.

So, we do the best we can. We live in today’s circumstance and hope for tomorrow. We try to cultivate our patience rather than our hurry or worry or the “I just don’t care anymore” attitude that comes so easily these days. What some people are calling COVID fatigue.

There is quite a theological debate happening right now about whether you can have “virtual” communion or not. This is when a minister or pastor blesses and breaks bread in “real time” at home, while you have your own bread in your home. Some say it doesn’t count. Some say it does. This is debate I will leave to theologians and denominations to have.

The point is, as we find new ways to worship and come together, we may find new ways to break bread with one another as well. New ways to connect, celebrate and care for one another as the body of Christ. And we must. Because we are the church. Right now, in our homes. Right now, in the world.

We have confused worshiping together with a particular group of people as “the church.” We thought that meeting in a special building made us “church.” But it doesn’t. Because we, in the present circumstances of our lives, are the church. Right now. Right here.

And we are still called to care for one another. To love one another. To be the hands and feet and living body of Jesus in the world. Even if we are asked to do so from 6 feet away. Or in masks. Or on our computers and from our phones.

This weekend, my husband and I met another couple for dinner at a park. The weather was glorious. We sanitized the picnic table. We sat 6 feet apart. We brought our own food. But we laughed together. We gossiped. We shared our lives. We fed a squirrel. I truly believe that God was present among us and between us. In the sharing. In the breaking of the bread. In that togetherness.

So to with you. So too with all of us. So long as we are looking for it. So long as we are reaching toward it. So long as we continue to pray for and bless and love one another.

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Pentecost, Holy Fire, Meanwhile Our Cities Burn

Photo of the Orthodox Christian feast of The Holy Fire, Church of the Holy Sepulchre, Jerusalem, Israel.

Photo of the Orthodox Christian feast of The Holy Fire, Church of the Holy Sepulchre, Jerusalem, Israel.

Over the past few days, friends and people I know have reached out to me expressing their frustration and anger with me around the events of the past few days. Namely the death of George Floyd, a black man, in the hands of four white police officers. Friends also shared their hope, dismay, and mixed feelings about the peaceful protests in major cities amid the coronavirus pandemic. They shared their sadness as protests turned violent, sometimes their understanding at those riots, and their horror at the police and National Guards response to them.

As our country country contends with police brutality and racism, with anger and violence, with peaceful protests and compassion, with fear and numbness…we wonder where God is in all of it. I know I do, even as a person of faith. Maybe especially as a person of faith. Just because I work for a mainline religious denomination doesn’t give me any more faith or grace than any other of God’s children.

This morning I was spending time with the Old Testament book of Isaiah and 26:5-6 says, 

"For he has humbled the inhabitants of the height, the lofty city. He lays it low, lays it low to the ground, casts it to the dust. The foot tramples it, the feet of the poor, the steps of the needy."

How apt. It is so easy for me to see my own country’s sinful history of oppression, subjugation, and colonialism in those words. The ongoing economic divide. The ongoing racism. The seemingly unending campaign against the poor and marginal.

Also, it causes me to pray, "How long oh Lord? How long?" How long will God allow us our racism, our increasingly violent military and police, our income inequality, and our lack of compassion, love, decency and tenderness to anyone who in not exactly like ourselves. How long!

Sometimes I am asked by people, why I go to church. What is the point they say? Why bother? A church service never seems to have much to do with what is going on in the world. Sometimes I wholeheartedly agree.

But Church is not about me as an individual, about my singular problems, or my personal agenda. No matter how needed or vital those things are in the world as a whole. Church is the opportunity for us to come together and worship God. To remind us and God of  God's goodness and God's love. To thank the Holy One for the blessings in our lives. To remind us that we do indeed have blessings, even as our cities burn. Even amidst a global pandemic.

Also to remind God and ourselves that there is still so much work to be done by us to bring the kin-dom of God to earth. We cannot do the work of the Loving One, which is the work of the church on earth, without the grace, power, and love of God. The Compassionate One must be at the center, or we risk all the work we do becoming our work instead of God's. Indoor church helps keep us centered.

On Pentecost, the feast of the Holy Spirit, we bring ourselves to worship God who is the source of all goodness, power, and mercy. When Jesus had risen from the dead, he told his Apostles that he would not leave them alone. He was sending his Spirit, as a friend, a counselor, a bringer of power to aid them. To let them do the work of Jesus on earth.

So it is with Pentecost. This feast reminds us that even in the middle of our cities on fire with protest, burning with racial injustice, boiling with state violence, that we are not alone. Pentecost reminds us that the Holy One has sent us a bringer of Power, an Advocate on our behalf: the Holy Spirit.

This Spirit gives us the gifts of grace to live out our kin-dom vision: peace, compassion, mercy, equality and humilty for all people in all places. As Jesus taught us to prayer, “On earth as it is in Heaven.”

Blessing for Resurrection

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Blessing for Resurrection

written by Emma Donohew for Easter Sunday 2020

This is a blessing on a day when we hoped things might be different
When deadlines were set
Then Moved
When Hopes were lifted
Then submerged

This is a Blessing for all those still trying to find some hope
Some hope in a pandemic, that truly affects ALL people
So receive it
Open yourself too it
Release a tear
Grieve the way things used to be

But don’t ignore all the potential 
In the way things can be

This resurrection stuff
Happens more than we think
But first comes death and emptiness

Like the woman at the empty tomb may we look beyond fear
Into our grief to see the joy creeping in the empty spaces

Empty spaces not representing an ending but a beginning
A new way for our world to be together

May we ask this blessing to bring us something different
And let us not ignore the possibilities hiding in the changes

Because on this day
Things on this day are supposed to be different

Celebrating resurrection is practicing hope
A manifestation of a hoped for reality

Let this blessing lead you into a new reality
Let this blessing lead you to new hope
Let this blessing lead you to Celebration!

Amen.

Submit Your Creations to the Echoes quaranZINE by 4/13!

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Echoes is once again creating a zine….only this time its a digital quaran-ZINE (as we all focus on sheltering in place and keeping our communities safe during these COVID-19 times!)

We gladly accept your quaran-ZINE submissions-ONLINE!

Please capture your drawings, poem, scribbles, painting, writing, collage, photos or general musings in a high quality digital format and send it our way! We'd love to get more art in the world during these chaotic times.

Send your submissions to info@echoesbellingham.org to be featured in this all digital quaranZINE BY 4/13!

Isolation Blues

Image From Unsplash by Priscilla Du Preez

Image From Unsplash by Priscilla Du Preez

BLUES /blooz/

  1. melancholic folk music, originating with African Americans in the rural South at the end of the 1800s.

I got the blues, can't be satisfied today.
I got them bad, want to lay down and die
. (Seal Baby Blues)

We get the idea. In the Pacific Northwest, I usually reserve my blues for the long gray winters, when me might not have a truly sunny day for over a month. The doldrums. The dumps. Doom and gloom.

We get them. Even the words we use for the blues, for melancholy, for depression use heavy, sluggish, sounds often blunt d’s and b’s. The soft hissing s’s in depression. The seemingly endless sighing oohs in moodiness and gloom.

Mystics can call this a dark night of the soul, when it appears all consolation has vanished.

Many of us may be facing our own set of blues in our new world of virus and illness. The new age of worry and isolation. I have been amazed at how new phrases suddenly become common speech, almost overnight: “shelter in place,” “social distancing,” and “flatten the curve.”

Three weeks ago, these words did not seem to exist.

And just as suddenly, in our efforts to flatten the curve, in our socially conscious for-the-common-good efforts at self-isolation, the blues can come crashing down upon us. For all of us. Single or partnered. Childless or at home with our children. Younger or older. The physically fit and those with pre-existing health conditions.

I hate platitudes.
They suck.

Depression and melancholy, loneliness and the longing are no respecter of persons. They come like an unwanted house guest and can turn into the worst of roommates.Distraction doesn’t always work. A dance party on social media may only be a momentary solution.

We are faced with new ways of living as COVID-19 continues to spread. It can get us down. It is normal and it is natural. Some of us may be depressed. Some of us may be experiencing anxiety. Some of us may suffer both, and often. This is natural. It’s okay.

The secret my depression and anxiety try to use once they have me down is to try and convince me that RIGHT NOW has always been like this. The past was always like I fee right now. And worse, the future will never feel better.

This is always the lie. The one I often miss. The one I need reminding against.

I hate platitudes. They suck. And most often when people say them to me, especially when I am suffering, I want to punch them in the throat before they can finish telling me, “God works in mys—-urggggh!!!”

The truth is, no matter where we are at today, we are still in the middle of a new way of doing things.

It takes time to adjust. It takes time. It will take you time.

Be gentle. Remember you are adjusting.

It is often easier for us to be gentle with others. To forgive them their shortness or flipping out because we know they are under stress. They are worried. They are doing the best they can.

But how often do we remember that WE TOO are stressed, worried, and coping?

How often do we forget to forgive ourselves for not being perfect at every moment?

I know, I am often the hardest with myself. Harder with myself even if I am snapping at others. More angry at myself for not “getting it together” than I am when I complain about who is responsible for a lack of test kits or masks at hospitals.

This week, give yourself permission to be exactly where you are at. No polish. No making things pretty for your social media feeds.

Tell yourself, it is OK to not be OK.

In your prayers, ask the Compassionate One, to allow yourself to be compassionate toward yourself.

If you are falling apart, reach out to someone via phone or text or Zoom or Skype.

Reach out to me if you need to. We can fall apart together. We can let the blues in and maybe, just maybe tomorrow, we can show them the door out.

Stuck in Ash Wednesday: Anxiety in the face of COVID-19. What do we do?

by Charis Weathers

Some parts of the world have been hit HARD by epidemics in my lifetime. But not here, not in the North America. Most of my generation and younger have never faced anything like the coronavirus. Nothing that would cause mass isolation for weeks at a time, possibly months at a time, with everyone needing to play their part in order for this virus to be subdued and decrease the hospital crush that we know is coming.

“That we know is coming.” As of today, here in Washington state we’ve had fifty deaths, half of the total for US casualties. Many families already know the grief and loss. Almost a 1000 people in Washington are already in the midst of a desperate war in their body to fight off this cure-less invasion - and these are only the confirmed cases.

Anxiety has settled in, to varying degrees. It’s remarkable that this is happening during Lent, a season that starts with Ash Wednesday during which we remind ourselves that “we are dust and to dust we shall return.” This is typically a very wise annual ritual in that we have the opportunity to reflect on our lives, how we’re living, and the fact that it’ll all end one day. We give this one day in the church. But in COVID-19 it’s like we are stuck in Ash Wednesday.

Every day we are faced with the uncertainty of disease - will we get it, or possibly worse, will we pass it on to others who can’t survive it? How bad will it get? Will the possible worst case scenario of over a million deaths in the US alone come true? Will our economy collapse entirely? Is there anything we can hold on to as a surety right now?

With this rise in anxiety comes a rise in collective stress. This increase in stress for everyone means, for me, that I have a shorter fuse, have a hard time moving on things, and just don’t feel like I’m okay.

Because it helps me to feel like I have some sort of control when I know more facts, and because it seems vital to talk about how we’re all feeling, yesterday Echoes hosted an online panel discussion with two experts - one a medical doctor, and one a behavioral health consultant. We needed to postpone our regularly scheduled ‘hamster church guest because he was going to play the harp, and we really want to experience that in person. So in the midst of trying to offer something helpful into the world we hosted this panel. We couldn’t meet together, but we could bring some wisdom to a group larger than our own. That felt good.

Some of the content, though, certainly didn’t feel good. The reiteration that there is no cure, that we’ve gone beyond the point of being able to stop this thing, that we’re all in a constant state of worry - these weren’t fun to hear, but they are also super important to hear right now as we all need to do our parts to suppress the spread of COVID-19.

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What was also good to hear, however, is the reminder that we need to remind ourselves that because we are in a state of stress we need to take extra measures to be compassionate - with others and with ourselves. This can be hard in normal times, and these times are certainly not normal. There is also the potential that we could see more clearly that we are all actually connected to one another. Can we use this time to re-learn how to work together instead of against each other? It’ll take a lot of us practicing this to make it stick on a larger scale, and frankly, not many individuals are good at it to begin with. So there’s work to do, even in the midst of social distancing.

Below is a video of last night’s zoom call. Dr Jennie McLaurin and Josh Whaley demonstrated a generosity of time that I hope we can all practice in some form or fashion. This conversation contains helpful tips and important medical facts about COVID-19. Feel free to give it a watch when you’re in social distancing mode. Maybe it can actually help bring us together.

Even though we are stuck in Ash Wednesday, the hope that rises from death, Easter, is coming. Let’s hasten that hope and new life, shall we?


Ash Wednesday Blessing

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written by Emma Donohew for Ash Wednesday Wild Church - February 2020

Don’t wash away the mark on your forehead just yet
Let it linger there a little longer
Allow this solid residue to sink into you

We bear ashes that often mark an end
To mark something new
Embrace this cyclical blessing
This threshold in time

Welcoming the earthly ashes to sit with you

Solid Residue
Leftover from our ancestors 
who kept fires lit before
and for us

Maybe everything is reusable 

Even us

For every part of us comes from
Something
Not just from somewhere

Ash Wednesday
Just another day to embrace the humility of our 
Residual nature

Not running from our known future
But welcoming our deep connectedness

Our shared origins
Invisibly interchanging between the generations

So embrace this residual blessing
These ashes from a fire
As a mark of memory
Of remembering
That you come from dust

And through dust, earth and water
You shall return

Amen

Day 7 - SERVICE CHURCH

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“Moving as a group, planting trees, cleaning up the environment…these things allow us to talk to each other, and other people while we work. This puts meaning to our lives and the lives of people with whom we share conversation.” --Rich

Service Church is a monthly activity at Echoes. We look for ways to give back to our local community, often by helping other groups with environmental stewardship. Caring for the land or “our natural home” as our mission statement names it, is one of the crucial ways that Echoes continues to build and maintain connection to the place in which we live.

Service puts the emphasis of the church and its congregation back into the world. Service allows us to share our gifts and talents with the whole community. Service is God’s call to us to “love your neighbor as you love yourself.”

On this last day of giving, consider how you have been of service to others in your own life: in your daily work, the people with which you interact, the way you care and greet the animals (domestic and wild) around you. You probably serve in more ways than you realize.

Please help Echoes continue the important work of giving back in the new year. Your donation is tax-deductible. With your gifts, we continue to serve our community well beyond our own front door.

Give to Echoes today!

Day 6 - 'HAMSTER CHURCH

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Each month Echoes hosts a monthly gathering where we invite members from the larger Bellingham area to share about their lives.  Why are they here? What are they doing to make life better here in the ‘ham? How can we learn from them?

These conversations allow us to meet people living alongside us in the community that we may never otherwise get to know. ‘Hamster Church extends Echoes’ reach into Bellingham and also practices the value of neighborliness. There is no “other” in God.

“Sometimes the topics are uncomfortable, like when we heard from the homeless people and the trans person at different ‘Hamster Churches. People often face hardships and difficulties in their lives and that can be hard to listen to. But I always come away with more insight and compassion for people.” –John

Contributing to Echoes today, helps us to keep having these important conversations with our neighbors. It creates connections across perceived barriers and divides. Your gifts grow kindness and community.

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Day 5 - CREATIVE CHURCH

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What is the connection between spirituality and the arts? Each month Creative Church explores this important question, and offers an opportunity to engage our own creativity in a mindful setting.

“The story we share of the interaction of humanity with God begins with the story of creation…I like to think of that piece of the creator in me as some of the source of my creativity. In Creative Church…we acknowledge and explore what that means. We don’t do it as an intellectual exercise. We do it by actually exercising that creativity…for me often not one I would do on my own.” –Tim

People who know they aren’t creative, come out the other side of Creative Church with tangible evidence that they indeed have the capacity and ability to be a creator themselves.

“To experience what that link to the creative God within us might be. It is another of the ways that Echoes approaches the full range of ways to connect more closely with God, especially that piece of God within us.”--Tim

Your giving to Echoes helps us continue to link spirituality with the creative arts. Help us to dream new and wonderful ways of express the deepest parts of ourselves and that small spark of the Sacred within.

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